I dont need therapy that bad jeez

Susannah thinks i should have therapy...she is probably right but i aint gonna do it...thats lame cost to much so no go i just havin a bad day you just need to chill Woman yeah thats right i threw down...chill woman chill...oh and Ashley is just annoying hahahahaha no lie the sound of...well any sound she makes makes me want to shoot my self im not even lying she is really annoying to me and i cant figure out why she just drives me up the wall...its insane i try to avoid being in the same room with her when i can :)

So she hasn't given me any more pictures as you probably noticed. She never has time. She is literally probably one of the busiest people i know. So you just gonna have to wait. So all day today has been a freaking terrible day....no idea why just everything about it sucked...i think i was happy a total of maybe 5 minutes today....everything is just pissing me off...iunno why....am i a disappointment? your first reaction or answer is probably a no but i dont mean a total screw up disappointment i mean have i ever in anytime in my life ever disappointed you? any of you...so i am tired of not having money....im tired of not seeing miranda every day im tired of not seeing pretty much anyone every day... no lie my life honestly feels empty its really lame kinda crappy

My Bad

So i havent been on in like 3 4 months roughly but thats ok....i think...im on now right so thats good umm i am posting some pictures of saturday when i took Miranda to her Homecoming Dance so yeah not alot its just four pictures but as soon as i get more i will post them promise


This is the Four of us being as normal as possible which was in fact the greatest night i have had hands down Miranda is the best like you cant even imagine no lie


so in the top picture you have me with Miranda on my back and Dano and his girlfriend Jenna
P.S. Dano leaves on his mission in November

Jenna's mom decided she wanted this pose for whatever reason umm it was my idea for the folded arms thing so yay me But doesnt Miranda just look Gorgeous?


this one is just me and Miranda being as good looking as we can...Miranda won by a landslide i had no chance...P.S. the watch on her arm was a two piece watch i picked out the watch and the band its shaped like a flower i figured flowers die so that was an easier way the the corsage thingy.

Hey so umm i met a girl the same time i met chicago on facebook...the only difference is the other girl is in Salt Lake not Chicago...and i have actually met her and her family and hung out with them....they even fed me once :) mostly because i just happened to be there when it was dinner time there and i cant say no...but yeah i have told mom and susannah about her...dunno if they remember they both have horrible memory...not really but sometimes they really do forget things...i have seen it...but anyways i think i really like her i have actually met and hung out with her so i can say that :) she is trying to come out this weekend so then i get to see her again...and when i got back to salt lake on sunday and monday i will try and see her again...it will be awesome...Oh and her name is Miranda

I done did it

So i joined the air force...next Tuesday i drive out there and stay in a hotel and wednesday i got to MEPS im not exactly sure what that stands for but its where i get my physical and everything...and then my recruiter is going to be out of town that wednesday so i wont be able to pick my job until friday when he drives through duchesne...i hope i get one in the medical field it would make me becoming a doctor alot easier...but yeah i left my folder downstairs or i would tell you benefits...but one is like cheap insurance its like 47 dollars a month for full coverage and everything and then say i need surgery for anything like say january of one year i will only have to pay 1000 dollars out of pocket...and then if i have to get surgery again that year i dont have to pay a dime...its kewl that way...plus i get paid so much for working the one weekend a month and 2 weeks a year thing...and when i go to college i get that money to...so they set you up financially really good...

Yes

Yeah sorry about the So there...and i really did thing yall would be mad or upset or something about it...i guess i dont know my family as well as i thought huh?? maybe its because i never see you...tee hee...just giving you a hard time...and about chicago girl we are actually still friends and do still like each other alot...and talk once in a while...im still kinda hoping we meet in the future and maybe get back together then...but chances arent very high on that one

Yeah

so first off me and Jordan...chicago...the girl i was like dating umm yeah we aren't dating no more...she like cheated on me...umm yeah so now everyone knows

Next...on thursday im going to go talk to a guy from the Air Force Reserves and my bishop says i am going to have to wait until i have money anyways before i go on a mission so i decided i would join the Air Force Reserves and then get a 2 year leave and go on my mission...so deal with it...but no seriously Dad and mom both said its kewl just so long as i do go on a mission so there...

Me and Chicago are all figured out we had our chat about stuff so we are kewl now...and i never said i was jealous...and as for the mission asap im at a stand still with my papers...all i need is to get to the doctors and junk and have them tell me im good to go...and as for the mission vs airforce i think i am going with the mission first then the airforce...so yeah...and she is supportive of the airfroce and i dont have to choose between her or it...we talked about that to :)

P.S. about the girl in chicago

the other day i had some random feeling to tell her i trust her ok...so then she tells me she has a date that night but she was going to keep it a secret but then decided to tell me because obviously i trust her plus i told her something extremely truthful...but then she said sorry...i asked why...and she wouldnt tell me...and she is always "busy" doing what she never tells me...so i am extremely suspicious...

the *cough* girl *cough*

She is the girl i know in chicago...ya'll need to seriously keep in touch with me better...make a phone call send me a message on facebook send me a text its not hard...anyways I have known her for more then a year we text every chance we get and call each other in between and the serious part is based on your definition of serious...umm we are somewhat dating i guess you could call it dating...we do...she had to explain to her parents how we didn't need to have a tangable relationship to be in a relationship...so now you all know...since we have been dating since Easter :) um she told me way before we started talking alot and dating she was planning to move to Salt Lake for college so umm now she just wants to move here more...which kind of works because she graduates the year i get back off my mission then she moves here i guess...but she isn't the biggest fan of me joing the airforce she is down with it sheis just worried the heck out...we usually dont talk about it because it upsets her...she is planning on waiting for me even though i told her she shouldn't but she was never good at listening to me in that way...when i say good things though she is all ears...so umm yeah you can tell me if that sounds serious...oh p.s. by the way i really do want her to wait for me i only told her not to because everyone told me to tell people not to wait...so yeah...

Thanks

Thanks but i dont have your email address...and joining for a year sounds good my bishop thinks i should leave as soon as i can a girl *cough* that i know *cough* thinks its kewl that im joining but it scares her to death...she wants me to seriously think it out before i do anything...umm she wants me to go on my mission first but she said she will support me in whichever decision i make...financially i think it would be easier to join the Air Force for a year then go on my mission because then i wouldnt use dads money and if i did it would be very little... i would feel better knowing i paid for it all on my own...so yeah give me your email and we will chat it up...plus i want EVERYONES opinion and stuff about what you think i should do... please and thankyou

Something like that...

So i made a poor decision a little while ago..umm its probably gonna alter somethings...i will let you know a little later how that goes...umm yeah Andrew...i need Air Force info and stuff...like as much as you know would be helpful...and uh did you ever get your bonus thing? how long does it take until you do get it? If i joined for a year would they give me a two year leave? or would i have to be joined for two years before that happened?? Any and all info you got will help thanks a much

mom do you want an invite...they are supposed to send me more but i aint got them yet so i just curious if you could maybe wait for one or if you wanted me to send it or give it to someone else or what??

Andrew i need your address for your house in logan its easier to send it there and anyone i need melissa's address cause i dont know it oh and they are going to probably be late just a heads up but i mostly figured yall wont be out here anyways so it doesnt matter if they are late

Addresses

ok i know i havent written in forever but ya'll have to love me long enough to give me your addresses so i can send you my invitation to my graduation please and thank you

the ER

Well i went to the ER sterling is dumb...what i gathered is that it has something to do with my cartlage and bone conection or something iunno susannah knows more about it then i do she pays more attention...umm i forget what they said about my stomach...they gave me 2 kinds of pills one to help with my problems the other for the pain. If it still hurts and junk then i have to go back next Monday. umm oh and a list of my problems is random pains everywhere chest pains stomach pains diarhea nausia vomiting head aches i have insomnia its weird i dont understand it umm i have a cancar sore on my tongue and a cold sore...YAY right...NO...because i have to take pictures for my senior graduation invitations...we will just have to get my right side not a full on veiw i guess... speaking of which dad i need to barrow some money until my pay day stuff please and thank you

Heads up i named people in the prom pictures...so yay me

Yeah so tomorrow i get to go to the hospital yay me no jk...but i get to find out whats wrong if anything...so i guess we will find out huh?? i will let you know tomorrow

PROM

Sidney and Taylor

Random dont even know who they are

Tyrell Jones

Brittany and Marty

Sidney and Tyrell

Mallary and Mathew

Yeah i dont know

Marlaina

Brad and Ciara

Sam and marlaina awww lol

Sam Brad Marlaina and ciara

Sidney and Tyrell

Travis Potter

Yes

Heather Moon

Sam in the back some random girl taking random pictures

People

Mallary and me...isn't it sweet

Me and Mal...My serious face

yeah thats right we are hot

Yeah we are goof balls


there you go you can stop checking i got it done...so yeah...have fun with it...these pictures at prom...not all me and Mal but yeah

All in good time

Yeah so as soon as i get pictures off of cameras then i will do some more posts like prom and stuff...yay me lol...so yeah...just be patient

The Answers

Yes. Im going to prom with Mallary Skye Workman. Her father is in the stake presidency. So i guess i better be on my best behavior and be even better then that lol. Work completely blows...the not fully eaten food is finally getting to me and making me sick every day i work...its dumb...and as far as after graduation goes im going to work until probably august maybe begginning of september and everything then go on my mission...and the closest thing to a girlfriend that i have is Chicago(Jordan Elizabeth Giegle) and since we dont live anywhere close to each other and technically have never even met i cant really say she is my girlfriend...im not 100% sure what you mean about social life but pretty sure im alright...i talk alot...or at least as much as i need to...i know people like all over Utah because of different social events...umm yeah...what other questions you got...

ok so i am pretty much at a loss on what to write about on this thing so everyone just needs to ask me questions so i can answer them then i don't have to over work my brain....i mean im a senior...i dont need to stress it to far.....

Ok then eveyone else should take out there oh flippin trash...why doesn't dad...or susannah...i can take out my own trash i have done it...but susannah said they take mine out to...but whatever...from now on no one will touch my trash...and i will get to it when i get to it...

Dream

Its a bad dream ....just a heads up lol...it seems so flippin real though no lie...like you know how in dreams you know your dreaming...well thats what i thought but i couldn't control to dream at all it seems like it was real life like everything was really happening...i was scared to death....well here it is

So one day we are just sitting in the kitchen and i am chillin in the recliner and we are all watchin tv and stuff and then something funny happens and out of no where i just stop laughing and my head falls on my chest...it lasts about 10 seconds and then i pop my head back up and start laughing again...everyone was laughing so loud no one seemed to notice...but then a few days later i was talkin and it happened again and my head fell down and then 10 seconds later i popped back and started talking again like nothing happend...it went on and on for a few weeks and it got a second longer to a few seconds longer every now and then...so everyone took me to the hospital and the doctors couldn't explain it except my heart stopped and my body just shut down... and he sent me home...i was lifting weights one day and i was bench pressing and it happened the bar fell on my and broke my ribs..thats when the doctor noted that when i am more active it happens more so he said i should do as little as possible and see what happens...at first it slowed down and didn't happen to often and when it did it lasted a shorter amount of time...but then one time it happend for a minute and everyone freaked...they took me to the doctor and they hooked me up to a bunch of crap and heart monitors and stuff and they tried to find a paturn in it but came up with nothing they thought it might be my heart was bad so they got me a new one but it still happened all the same....so all they could tell was my body was slowly shutting down and dying...so they asked me if i had one wish you know like a death wish thing...so i asked for Jordan (girl from Chicago) (and we have some bet goin that the first one to kiss the other loses its weird and stuff anyways it comes into play) and she came and she was straight in tears the entire time everyone couldn't believe what was happening i had 2 blessings and it didn't help at all...and it didn't hurt and i didn't know anything had happened except i was getting extremely tired and more worn out...but about the 3rd day that Jordan was there i used all my effort to lean up to her and kiss her she just smiled and cried more...the next day i woke up and everyone was still there and so i told some blonde joke and everyone was laughing and Jordan kissed me on the forehead and stuff...then i started to tell everyone i loved them and was thankful for them and everything they did and right before i got to some most heart touching heart warming part my heart stopped for the last time...

It seemed so real everything i could taste the food feel the warmth of the sunlight it was so crazy like i tried to wake up because it was a dream and nothing happened it was the single most horrifying dream i have ever had...

Chicago

like 3/4 the people on my friends thing on facebook i dont know its just abunch of people who added me i dont know why they just did...she was one of them...and she just happened to catch my attention...so i sent her a message and then we got to talkin then then texting and i have called her a couple times...so there...your up to speed again good job

Haha yeah she is younger then 16...and i am keeping my distance we are just good friends and i started texting the girl in chicago by facebook she started talkin to me then got a cell phone and asked me if i had one naturally i said yes and i did have texting so now she texts me and sends me pictures once in a while she is LDS so its all good

P.S. rules thing and stuff and yeah

by the way about the rules and school is hell and junk...it wasn't so much the rule i can understand all the crap its that they changed the rule...first day of school they said first time we get it taken away the principal gives the warning then the second time its 3 dollar fine...now its just 3 dollar fine...i dont remember if i said that or not but i did now...thats what really made me blow up...rules are rules and i see everyones point but they changed the stupid rule thats all im sayin...oh flip there was something else i wanted to say but i cant remember it...it was something that had to do with something that someone said to me about something else...iunno well so i like this girl at school right k but i probably shouldn't like her because she is a bit alot young for me...and our cousin married her sister...but yeah...if i think of that other thing i will let ya know...

up to speed....

Hmm...in church in priests class thingy majig i am the 1st councilor i taught a lesson a few years weeks ago i conduct the class at the beginning every few weeks i have a meeting every sunday at 10 so i am always there on time...i bless the sacrament from time to time...i pray morning and night i fast on fast sundays and i read my scriptures when i remember...i wake up every day at 730 to 740...i go to school monday through friday unless its a holiday...i work 4 days a week...and i cant sleep until about midnight every night i dont know why i have a sleeping disorder or something...i text a girl that lives in chicago she is super sweet and way nice...i text a girl in fruitland to but we wont go into her...she is just a big mess and a bad bad temptation and im running out of excuses why i cant hang out with her...but i dont want to be mean and tell her the truth...although i should so it hurts less i guess...besides those two girls i really dont text anyone...and i try and keep ashley and adrian and samuel out of trouble but i cant choose their friends for them and adrian seems to be the only one who picks the best ones...samuels arent the worst but there are better...ashley is just dumb with her friends and their drama then she goes back to them after the screw with her...she is retarded in that area...and i made this other girl in roosevelt mad at me when i chewed her out for calling me pet names forever...umm oh i practically starve myself i never eat breakfast cause i never wake up early... i eat lunch at school but that will have to stop soon because i am broke until thursday...i dont eat dinner to often because i am at work and even though i get a free meal i dont always have time to eat...i have probably lost 10 pounds...in the past week...(nothin to do with susannah leavin)....umm girls at school are just confusing and i wont even try to figure them out...i am getting practically nothing back in taxes like maybe 240 or something...enough to have i guess...yeah now you are all up to speed about me...

im tired of posting crap...i will do it when i have something good to say...which so far isn't gonna happen to soon

oh and just out of randomness i seriously expected more people to comment the marines thing...then the cell phone..thing..thats just weird

stupid school

Its not so much the teachers rule as it is the school board...like a few of my teachers see people with it and just tell them to put it up the first couple times then they take it and give it back the kid after school but if they do it again then they give it to the principal...or like one of my teachers makes you pay him a fee to get it back from him instead of the office...which the office rule is a total lie...they say the first offense you just get it back with a warning until you go to get it back...then they make you pay dirty heffers or hefers or whatever the flip you spell it...anyways and then a couple of my teaches could care less as long as you work...my first hour class lets me text listen to music whatever...well besides call someone...its just some people are uptight and idiotic...and i hate watches...thats one reason y i have a cell phone...i love it more and so i take care of it better i beat the living tar out of watches...thats just who i am...i cant go anywhere with anything on me...thats y i hardly wear my class ring it will get torn all to heck...i only wear it once in a great while...so i think school is hell on earth...with rules and restrictions...its one of the only places where all your rights are removed when you walk through the doors so the school board is likes its only dirty government and they make laws and vetos and crap. and they have their little governers(principals(which is a dumb way to spell it the principal isn't anywhere close to your pal dirty old man) and all their mayors of their cities and towns(teachers and councilors and such) so in each town(classroom) they can have some laws all their own and then their is the state laws(which the dumb school government crap put in place) which everyone abides by...but as long as they dont have to follow the rules they put into place what the crap do they care what they are...like i heard on the radio the cops in duchesne and stuff can speed if they want...they dont have to have a real reason..im sure its only within reason but thats still jacked up...hope you like my analogy thingy...i guess thats what its called...

K so i am in school right now go me right?? no jk anyways but ya yesterday i had my phone taken away because i pulled it out to check what time it was in between second and third hour...i just happened to have a text right then so i pressed a button to get out of it to check the time...so it looked like i was texting....not that it mattered anyways because they have a dumb A rule about having phones out in between classes teachers can do anything but students cant do crap what the freak right??? right... so anyways i go after school to get it and the stupid lady said i couldnt get it because stupid old fart was in a stupid meeting thing and i have to get it today...but chances are i probably cant get it today either because its friday and there is lunch right after our 7th hour cause its a short day and so he will take is stupid time...then i will be stuck outside the office waiting and if they basketball team has a game he probably wont let me get it cause he is a stupid coach...but i am not leavin this school without my phone...so i guess we will see what happens...

Marines

Hey so ima thinking about joinin the Marines...so far i have talked to most of the people but for the people who dont know now you do...Pretty much everyone i have told has either told me crap about it or just not to do it...but a few people tell me to go for it and other say they dont care either way...so yeah...yall can tell me your thoughts if you haven't already...

Hey...well me and traci arent together no more...but traci still wants brownies susannnah...just a heads up...so yeah...umm yeah

I NEED HELP PLEASE!!!!

Hey everyone i need your help k....So i like traci and stuff but she keeps bringing up getting married and at first it sounded like a good idea and stuff and i figured i could do that and everything...but i have never been able to see it (you know like imagine it and stuff ya i aint been able to pull that one off) so anyways i decided to pray about it right...and every time i pray if she is the person for me to marry and everything i i get a no you know....so anywho i need help to what to do...oh and she isn't so on board with the Air Force thing at all...but yeah me and her was talkin about it on monday right and by next like tuesday she wants to know whats going on like if i stay with her or break up with her or what...i have gotton some help already one from a good friend he said that as long as i do what i am supposed to go on a mission and stay clean and stuff then it will work out how it is supposed to even if its not the way you want it to and stuff...and then my wonderful brother Andrew (great guy he is) we had a chat and a half about it yesterday and he was sayin how i shouldnt be with somebody that doesnt support me like the Air force thing and maybe i am getting a no is because i am still going on a mission and stuff and because she doesnt support me...lik she is holding me back...and she asked me if she was but i ignored that question...i didn't really think about it until Andrew said something...and then he said that if i dont think there is any chance that me and her will be together again then i shouldn't tell her that it might happen after a mission but i just need major help...im flippin only 18 i dont know what im doin...